Revelations

My name is Melia.

I revel in my quirks.

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There is only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that’s your own self.

Aldous Huxley

Growing Pains

Here’s a list of mine.

To me, growing pains means:

1) checking your bank account online more often than Twitter or Facebook,

2) no time for trivialities,

3) sucking the world’s problems up until you’re blue in the face and figuring out a way to cope before you exhale, and

4) learning how to appreciate the fleeting, happy moments so you don’t get lost in the immensity, responsibility, and weight of everything else.

# Growing pains

# responsibility

We don’t work to make money. We work to survive.

I feel like my brain is going to explode. I feel like there are bugs, little thought monsters inside my brain, trying to claw and pry their ways out of my brain mass and through my skull. I feel like they’re mixing up the thoughts and sections of my brain that are still intact and trying to claw through it all. They’re ripping it all apart and making me googley-eyed. It’s like they want so badly to escape that they’ll use anything they can to do so.

I am light-headed, I am dizzy. I am tired and exhausted and upset and sad and on the brink of breaking down and lonely but tired of company at the same time.

I really hope I’m not losing it. If I’m not, these hormones don’t fuck around.